Might seem a little strange to use this
picture in the Header of this site, especially considering
that the first page anyone visiting this site is the Landing Page
with the Warning of what kind of site this is, and requesting
to be 18+ to Enter.
But to me it looks like the most
appropriate way to show that this blog is of a Transgender
Woman. A picture of my butt doesn’t tell if I am male
or female, but it does tell the visitor the nature of this site.
This way a new visitor will be able to quickly decide if he/she wants
to go ahead and click Enter, or simply leave at once with an
side of the internet“,
Also, it does show my intention of
feeling attractive and desirable for men (men usually don’t use
their butt to attract women, LOL).
So yes…that’s my butt.
And that’s the reason I decided to use
that specific picture for the Header, even if it can be seen
in the Landing Page (and every other page).
As I mentioned in the previous post,
I’ll explain why I decided to restart this site from scratch.
But first, a little of statistics:
-I started this site in March 15, 2013.
-Uploaded 504 posts, 1,179 pictures,
and 36 videos.
-I opened a Facebook, Tweeter, Skype and YouTube accounts.
-I also opened profiles in TSMeet (a Transsexuals dating site), OutPersonals (a Gay dating site) and TrueNudists (a Nudists social site).
-I even reached 999,479 visitors in
this site (AwryAngel) in that time…almost 1 million!
-In July 07, 2017 (4 years later)
I abandoned this site, accounts and profiles.
-By the age of 45 I started exploring what were those inner feelings I had since childhood.-When I reached 50 years old I realized I had a woman inside.
-A straight man who like women, and a
straight woman who like men.
-By American Indian culture I
was a Two Spirit person.
-At least that was my conclusion at
So in 2013 I started this site to keep
track of the mind and physical processes of transforming from man to
woman, which was my goal at that time. But by then I’ve already
lived as a man for 50 years, had married a woman and together we
formed a family, so it wasn’t so simple as to “come out”
and divorce, leaving behind a family to pursue a dream of being a
woman. Besides, the possibilities for Sex Change Surgery are very
slim at the age of 50, and even the use of female hormones is not
recommended because of the health risks involved.
So it was a four years mind battle to
preserve a dream (Transitioning to become a woman) while
trying to accept the truth (I cannot Transition because of my
age). In that time I questioned everything, explored
possibilities, tried to create a more female-like look and dated some
men, all while keeping everything a secret. I even acquired
Fibromyalgia Syndrome because of all the stress during that
So in 2017, and after a break up with a
man with whom I had a hidden relationship I simply was too depressive
to continue. What was the point? I would never be a woman and
everything has been bad up to that point. Better continue living as a
man and forget about everything! So I abandoned this site and
But after a couple of months, and since
I am also a Nudist, I went back to the nudists site. It was there
where I found encouragement from friends to continue fighting to
become the woman I am inside, even if it could be only in a “Part
For that reason I’ve
decided to restart this site, although this time in a more simplified
way. Now not so much about becoming a Post-Operation Transgender
Woman, but rather more in the intention of cultivating the inner
feelings as a personal treasure.
So throughout this site
I’ll be talking mostly about the Psychological and Societal
implications of being a Transgender, together with uploading pictures
to show how a Transgender woman looks like. And if you find somehow
weird my way of talking please don’t be surprised, together with
being English my second language I also have Asperger’s Syndrome,
so I am “naturally” weird, LOL
Hope you like the way this
site is going to be and take the time to visit often.
For people visiting this site again it may seem strange what happened here. This is not the site they where used to see. Where are the hundred of posts? the thousand of pictures? And even the several videos? The short answer is simple: I decided to restart the site.
But the long answer is a lot more
complicated than that, so I will explain in detail in the next posts,
together with why I abandoned this site in 2017 (after 4 years),
what motivated me to come back, and why I decided to start from
Now, starting from scratch means I have
many changes planned for this site, and considering I am not a techie
person, it will take me a while to get everything up and running
smoothly. I want to make this site simpler but more interactive.
So if you visit me here often you will
see changes, improvements and new posts and pictures every day. Hope
you like the new site!