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Wild Sex & Women

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The man is always in the mood for sex and have to find a willing woman; while the woman is most of the times not in the mood, so the man has to bring her up to that point.

When the woman is in the mood, then that’s when sex is wild. So a young woman with the instinct of mating will give wild sex; mostly because she is in the mood already and the man doesn’t have to wear up himself getting her to that point.

For a woman it takes time to get to the point of wanting sex as in penetration. It takes a lot of foreplay, sweet massage and sweet kissing, starting with her lips and her breasts, to slowly going to the more intimate part. If a man is in a hurry and go straight to the sexual parts, most of the times she can be turned off, and then it will take even longer to get her aroused. But if she wants sex, she will easily find willing men for her, and it’ll take very little for those men to be aroused and ready to penetrate her.

For a man things are a lot different. He usually can get aroused just at the sight of a naked woman. Just by seeing her naked in bed a man can become ready to penetrate her. It would take to strip naked for a woman to get a man ready for sex! But if a man wants sex, it’ll be difficult for him to find a woman willing to accept him quickly.

It’s no wonder there are so many problems with sex in people’s adult life. Nobody teaches these things to anybody; so when men want sex they tend to just go for it, thinking women must want sex the same way they men do; while women expect a patient and slow foreplay before anything can happen. The result then is that women consider men just brute sexual searchers, while men consider women frigid, ice cold creatures!

Most of the times when there is sex between men and women, it is because women are already aroused and wanting sex. When men are aroused and wanting sex, it can easily be considered afterwards by the woman as abuse, and even more, considered rape.

Men get ready for sex with very little, while women need a lot of foreplay to get there. The human instincts and physiology are different, plus the societal teachings that when a man wants sex it’s just natural, while when a woman wants sex she is a slut! Why is that?

Angel

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An Angel For Someone (Re-Post)

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I want to be a little angel for someone! I want that man to think of me as his sweet creature, that he wants to hug and kiss and touch, because this little creature brings him sweetness and care to his life and to his body.

I want to kiss him very sweetly in his lips and entire body, softly touching every inch of his skin with my hands and my smooth, shaved face. Play with his cock; kiss it, suck it and rub it in my face. Cuddle in his chest and purr like a happy kitten, while I softly touch his skin with my fingers, and move my body to let him know that I am a willing creature, and that I am his. Talking to him in the smoothest and sweetest voice I can make, while using my softest gestures.

I want this man to treat me with sweetness and care, like to a fragile creature that can be too easily destroyed. To touch me and softly run his hand and lips throughout my entire body, especially when I lay face down. Play with my butt touching, kissing and squeezing, until his desire of relief by fucking this sweet, little creature takes over.

Then I want to feel him over me, laying his weight over my body and start rubbing his cock in my butt while holding me from my chest with his arms and hands and breathing in my neck, like a wolf feasting in his prey. Then I’ll remain compliant, enjoying being my wolf’s meal. Smoothly twisting and moving my body and my butt under his cock, to make him feel he is desired and in control.

I want to feel he becomes stronger and mightier over me, holding me tighter while he let himself loose to the sexual desire of completely owning that little creature…his possession! Then feel his strong shaking while releasing his juices in my butt and between my legs, until he relaxes and rest for a moment over my body, as I feel his breathing become calmed once again.

Then, when he moves aside to rest on his back, I’ll turn around and hug him from the side leaning my head in his shoulder while kissing his neck and cheeks, at the same time that I rest my leg over his legs and sweetly run my hand over his chest and body, and purring like a kitten to show him that his sweet little creature is happy and loves him.

I don’t ask from him to be his only one or faithfulness from his part, just like I don’t require that we become a couple in a long term relationship. He can be free to do his life while I’ll do mine, and only in those moments when we get together for a couple of hours of play, we will be just for the other, giving everything of ourselves to our momentary loved one.

Unfortunately, this would work for a man who wants a sweet girl rather than another man; maybe a young boy still could make it, but for someone like me that don’t have the shape and look of a woman it’ll be really difficult (sigh!), but I’ll keep working on that, trying to reach the best shape and look I can for him to enjoy, and so I can enjoy this dreamed adventure.

Angel

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Dream Date

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We all dream of something we would like to experience, and I guess that shows who we are, what we want, and what are we searching for.

Since I feel as a woman, I like to be the female, kitty type one. Dressing sexy in what in my concepts is sexy, which seems to differ from what guys and CD’s in sex dating sites most commonly like.

I’ll be wearing a light fabric dress; the kind that opens in front and you put it on like a jacket. It would be a very simple design dress, that covers my butt like a mini skirt, and is closed in front with a line of buttons, and then an integrated belt. I will have nothing else on me; no shoes, no underwear, nothing. Just my wig and make up, and some light jewelry like earrings and a necklace.

My date will visit me at my place, so I’ll be waiting for him with my dress on and some wine ready to serve. When it comes to men I like the simple type, not the big muscle kind; he is in decent shape but nothing great. He is wearing jeans, a T shirt and tennis shoes when he visits me. Think of a geek type; maybe a library rat.

We get together and he holds me and kiss me while I give myself up to him. He starts unbuttoning my dress and I let him, as a sign that I am his to play with. He opens my dress and start massaging my breasts as we chat for a moment about how our days have been going. Then he walks me to my bed. I go in front of him and he lifts my dress and grabs my butt as we walk.

I pour some wine in the glasses and play some romantic music in the stereo. We drink and dance slowly while kissing. Then he takes my dress off and I am completely naked in front of him while he is still with his clothes on. I am his, for his pleasure. I kneel in front of him and make love to his cock for a while, so he can feel pleasure. Then he takes me to bed and bend me over, having my butt in front of him. He massage my whole body and kiss me all over very sweetly, as he knows that gets me wild.

 

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He kiss and licks my ass, to then play with it pouring lots of lube, and then he enters me, very slowly and carefully, while I feel him taking me and making me his. Then he grabs me from my hips and starts fucking me harder and harder, while I stand the fucking, the shaking, the use he is giving me. There’s nothing I can do, other than let him fuck me, and that gives me so much pleasure knowing he is having pleasure by using me to get his sexual relief.

Then he lift me and throw me in bed face down, so he can fuck me while being on top of me. He fucks me in my ass, at the same time he grabs me tight from my shoulders and breasts, while breathing heavily in my neck. All his weight is over me, so I feel I can’t move; I can’t do anything; I have to stand the hard fucking until he decided he had enough. He is the wolf; I am the prey and he is feasting on me!! So I close my eyes and enjoy being his for his pleasure.

When he is ready to cum, sometimes he cums inside me; other times he cums all over my back and butt, and other times he turn me around and cum in my face, my mouth or my breasts. He leaves me with his cum on me.

Then he takes me by the hand and guide me to the shower, where he starts washing me all over, while I stand still with my arms over my head and my eyes closed for him to wash his toy. His hands run all over my body, invading every very personal place. But I let him because I know he enjoys having me all, and I enjoy being his all.

He soaps my body with his hands, and then wash away the soap, again, with his hands. I am touched everywhere several times. I am groped and used by him, while I stand still with my arms on my head, and remain with my eyes closed, so he doesn’t feel controlled on what he can and cannot do because of my eyes. He owns me and he knows it.

 

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Then he drys my body with the towel, and takes me by the hand to the living room, to have another glass of wine, listen to the soft music, and seat in the couch with me leaning my head in his shoulder or over his legs. I talk very softly and slightly touch his body, so he knows I am his kitty to pet for a moment.

Times always fly when having fun, and when six hours had gone in like five minutes, he has to leave. So I go with him to the front door hugging him and softly rubbing my face in his neck while purring like a kitten. Then at the door, he is standing ready to go while I am standing still naked, saying goodbye. We kiss, he gropes me again and give me a quick spank, and then he leaves.

He is happy because he had me. He loves me because I give him pleasure the way he wants it, and I love him because he is very sweet and tender with me, and he treats me like a fragile kitten that needs love. We give each other what the other wants sexually, and in the way each other want it. So even though I reduce myself to serve him and give him pleasure, and he takes me and uses me for his pleasure, we both do it with respect, care and love, so we know we are for each other.

Then the times we have outside of the bedroom talking and discussing things…that’s a completely different story! But I’ll tell you about that in another post.

Kisses

Angel

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Energy and Stress

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It’s been really strange. For the past about six to eight of weeks my energy levels went down big time. I knew what I had to do, but simply had no energy to do it. The lists of things to complete went passing and passing, and even though I knew I was getting nothing accomplished, I simply couldn’t do anything; I had no energy at all!! I just sat in there, watching the lists, thinking I should do something, yet couldn’t even get up to start anything.

After thinking a lot why that strange situation, I concluded it could be the problems with my no bowl movements that might have been affecting my energy levels somehow.

You see, about six months ago I stop having bowl movement. At first I didn’t realize and just thought might have been something I ate, and disregarded the problem with the idea that after a couple of days everything would be fine. Well, after a couple of days I started having those strange lumps around my anus, and that’s when I thought of a sexual infection; something acquired through my lover, with whom we had been having sex and me receiving partial anal penetration.

He denied having any disease, and I knew I haven’t been with anybody else for the last couple of years, so the strange lumps around my anus kept growing in complete mystery of why.

Then came the colonoscopy test I was going to do because of the continual insistence of my doctor; “You are over 50, you should have a preventive test done”. I didn’t want the test, so dodged the bullet and simply didn’t do it; until I thought of a sexual disease because of the lumps around the anus, and the extended no bowl movements, now for about four months!

I drank the whole gallon of fluid to clean up the colon before the test; I had my time seating at the toilet feeling the strange water flow from my ass, until the water came clean; I got ready for the test. Then something strange happened. My stomach became flat, the lumps around my anus disappeared, and I got a lot of energy to do things!

 

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First, I realized how bloated I’ve been for the past couple of months! It wasn’t just being fat; it was being bloated!! I knew I was still overweight, but shouldn’t have such big, beer kind of belly!! Something was in my stomach creating the problems.

Second, I associated the lack of energy and the existence of the lumps around my anus with the no bowl movements. Like if this no bowl movement was creating all the problems; my big belly by bloating; the lumps in my anus as a reaction of the body for not evacuating the waste properly, and no energy as a physical consequence of this all.

But by the next day, test day, the lumps returned, even if I hadn’t eaten anything and my colon was empty. So I went to have the test with the idea of telling my doctor about this. He checked the lumps around my anus and asked me if I had sex through my ass. I lied, I told him no. He is the family’s doctor, so didn’t want to admit it to the same doctor that sees my wife! He said it was Herpes, and that was something acquired by anal sex. He couldn’t do the colonoscopy because of the risk of breaking some of the lumps and spreading an infection.

To me it was depressive! Sort of a confirmation that my lover of the time had to be the one that gave me the sickness. And the next day, after having my regular, light meals, there was no bowl movement, the lumps got bigger and spread, and energy disappeared once more. Back to the beginning!

Since no energy to do any physical activity, I spent time in the computer, not writing posts or anything productive since together with the lack of physical energy I also had no creativity and couldn’t concentrate in any specific thought, but instead was surfing the net to try and find what could be the problem I was having. After a couple of weeks on that I found it could be no sexual disease, but simply an obstruction of the colon what was creating all the problems. No bowl movements, so generated bloating, lack of energy and the lumps in my anus.

 

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Up to that moment about four months have passed since the bowl movement stopped. This was about six weeks ago. Still no energy, so couldn’t complete physical tasks, and so dedicated myself to think why. Why I was having all these problems. My conclusion was that it might be excessive stress that is causing all of this physical problems, that in turn created all the other problems.

So pushed myself in trying to find why I could be so stressed out, while also trying different ways to fix the possible colon obstruction. That was the time I came up with the past long posts about Two Spirits, and the explanation of how the whole transgender thing might work; while observing my body reactions to treatment with forced bowl movement with the use of milk of magnesia every day, for about a week.

Well, I got many conclusions about how this whole transgender thing might work, and I got a very decent amount of energy back, so was able to start doing physical things again. And concluded also that the reason for such big stress could be my indecision in telling or not to family and friends about me, Angel, and explaining I am a Two Spirits person. In other words, coming out of the closet!!

And to add even more problems, due to not having laser hair removal in my body for about a year now, the body hair is growing faster and stronger, so it has become more difficult to shave it, and right the next day after shaving there is a big itching in the whole body caused by the coming hair rubbing against other parts of the body, like leg against leg, so I get a big rush in my skin.

Because of this I’ve decided to stop shaving for a while, so to avoid having yet another problem to deal with. But instead I’ve been having the new problem of seeing my body hair grow a lot, so I feel bad in how it looks, since now the body hair is “accusing me” that I am not a woman but a man, or at least that I am a woman that looks like a man rather than herself. Yuk!!

 

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So it is understandable if I am so stressed out in front of all these problems and such big and life changing decision. It is like my subconscious is pushing me to come out and start living alone, divorced, and being a woman in public, rather than a man. Yet, at the other hand, my conscious is making me consider how I could destroy other people’s lives by coming out, and what are the real possibilities of me being physically a woman. Big puzzle!! So the result is big stress.

I don’t know if I reached a point where I cannot longer keep the secret and desperately need to tell and be myself, and that creates the stress that in turn creates the physical problems? Or if there is a sexual disease or colon obstruction that is really a physical problem creating everything, including stress and confusion.

Obviously the best thing to do in this case would be to get tested for sexual diseases, and get the infamous colonoscopy done once and for all, so to know what is really happening. The problem is that right now I don’t have medical insurance, so I would have to pay everything from my pocket and that is too much for me, so I can’t afford the expenses, and so I am sort of trapped in a loop!

Just a couple of days ago I stopped taking milk of magnesia every day, to see if my bowl movements have returned to normal after the “treatment” of forced bowl movements for a week. Nope!! So I’ll go back to take that milk for another week to see how things evolve; all until I can pay for the tests and the doctors visits.

I know I might have what they call a serious condition, especially if it is a colon obstruction, but for now I have no choice and have to take the risk of things getting worst, until someday in the future I’m able to get professional treatment. The good thing is that by experimenting on myself and keep surfing the net for answers, at least I get to learn a lot about the human body, the human mind, and to think about what to do to be myself without hurting anybody.

I’ll keep you posted in what is happening, and how things are evolving (or revolving, LOL)

Kisses

Angel

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Double Cock

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Someday I would like to try that!! Like the picture above.

It is such a crazy thing for me to think of a sexual fantasy like that, yet I guess many Tgirls would like to do something like that too. Being fucked while sucking a cock at the same time.

I know it is a dirty fantasy but, like many people, I too have my own sexual fantasies that I dream of one day make them happen, and experience something crazy with my body.

Maybe someday I’ll be able to try this, or maybe I will never, who knows. But just thinking about it I get all excited and horny!! LOL

Kisses

Angel

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