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My Ass



How important is my ass!

By its sole existence I can have hopes in the future in my life.
Because I have my ass, I can have men interested in my heart!
Thanks to my ass a stupid and boring dress can become a sexy one.
High heels are used to move my ass.
The bigger the ass, the better the fuck. (Or so they say)
My brain can be small and my words can be stupid, as long as at the end I let them use my ass.
I can get more drinks for free in a first date if I have a good ass.
I will consider he is an ass, when he is only interested in my ass.
Do you like the picture of my ass?
My face doesn’t attract as many prospects as my ass does.
In a Gay dating site it is a good thing to say “kiss my ass!”
I guess I should say instead, “I swear for my ass”!
My best friend is not you, but the bottle of lube for my ass.
They think all I want is being fuck in my ass.
Then what would be the difference with a fuck machine for my ass?

Sometimes I feel more important than my brain and my heart is my ass.
How important is my ass!




Cannot Return

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I don’t understand. I tried to return. Tried to go back to the brain and stay there, but it seems I cannot return!

In the post “Time to Return” two months ago I mentioned I was going to retrieve inside the brain and let my brother take control back over the body. No more being a woman in physical life while using a borrowed body.

Well, the idea seemed fine, and I did try my best to go back inside the brain, but after two months it has been impossible! Even though many times the activities have been my brother’s, and so it supposed to be easier for him to retake control of the body and for me to retrieve inside the brain, still it has been me all the time the one being “out” and controlling the body. No matter what, it has been like if automatically it is and will always be me the one controlling the body, which means I am not inside the brain, but pretty much out and about!

And it does become scary!

I do want to be in physical life, and would love to have the body for the rest of its life for me to use it (and transform it) as I please. But when it comes to the cost of having it without the express consent of my brother, then it becomes more like stealing it from him, and with it, robbing him of his life and the life he had with his family. Not only it hurts one man, but his family too!!

And then there is the health part. For some reason, since I started coming out of the inside of the brain and using the body, it seems the body has become more and more ill.

So I wanted to retrieve inside the brain and return things to their original state; my brother controlling his body and me living inside. My hopes still are that maybe going back to how it used to be, the body will start to recover from all the problems it has been acquiring since I started using it.

You see, it is like too much of a coincidence that since I started using the body, the body started adding one problem after another. First acquiring the Fibromyalgia Syndrome, which is considered to be acquired due to excessive stress (and boy, life has been stressing since I started controlling the body!). Then came the loss of vision; my brother used to have such a sharp eyesight, and now it is required augmentation of 2.50 to read what I am writing in the computer right now. Then the weight gain, going from 165 to 195 lbs in about a year, and since then unable to get down, but having peaks of up to 205 lbs! Then add the stomach problem with the loss of bowl movement, which also seems to be attributed to stress! And then the bumps in the anus, to which one doctor said it is hemorrhoids, another said it is Herpes, and another said it is Warts. The weird thing is the bumps get reduced when I clean up the stomach with milk of magnesia! And now this kind of Cold or Flu I acquired lately, and haven’t been able to get rid of for three weeks!

So what else is next?


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I do feel I should retrieve inside the brain and let my brother retake control of the body; the problems is, I’ve tried but I just can’t! It is like I am stuck with controlling the body, and there is no turn back, which makes me doubt our Two Spirits condition and think of a Transsexual condition instead. In other words, maybe it always was a woman, and the man only existed because of social pressures while growing up? Maybe that’s why now I can’t go back inside? It is not that I came out and my brother in, but rather that I replaced him as one person changing from man to woman, and that’s why it is not possible to change back? In other words, it wasn’t a switching of who controls the body, but rather a Transsexual evolution? Who knows.

The problem then would be what about the male feelings that still are around in the brain? The desire for women; to be with them and touch their bodies? I have those desires! So are they mine or my brother’s?

It all seems more like a mental collapse sometimes! Like my only destination is the nut house! Soon!!

I really don’t know what to do.



An Angel For Someone (Re-Post)

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I want to be a little angel for someone! I want that man to think of me as his sweet creature, that he wants to hug and kiss and touch, because this little creature brings him sweetness and care to his life and to his body.

I want to kiss him very sweetly in his lips and entire body, softly touching every inch of his skin with my hands and my smooth, shaved face. Play with his cock; kiss it, suck it and rub it in my face. Cuddle in his chest and purr like a happy kitten, while I softly touch his skin with my fingers, and move my body to let him know that I am a willing creature, and that I am his. Talking to him in the smoothest and sweetest voice I can make, while using my softest gestures.

I want this man to treat me with sweetness and care, like to a fragile creature that can be too easily destroyed. To touch me and softly run his hand and lips throughout my entire body, especially when I lay face down. Play with my butt touching, kissing and squeezing, until his desire of relief by fucking this sweet, little creature takes over.

Then I want to feel him over me, laying his weight over my body and start rubbing his cock in my butt while holding me from my chest with his arms and hands and breathing in my neck, like a wolf feasting in his prey. Then I’ll remain compliant, enjoying being my wolf’s meal. Smoothly twisting and moving my body and my butt under his cock, to make him feel he is desired and in control.

I want to feel he becomes stronger and mightier over me, holding me tighter while he let himself loose to the sexual desire of completely owning that little creature…his possession! Then feel his strong shaking while releasing his juices in my butt and between my legs, until he relaxes and rest for a moment over my body, as I feel his breathing become calmed once again.

Then, when he moves aside to rest on his back, I’ll turn around and hug him from the side leaning my head in his shoulder while kissing his neck and cheeks, at the same time that I rest my leg over his legs and sweetly run my hand over his chest and body, and purring like a kitten to show him that his sweet little creature is happy and loves him.

I don’t ask from him to be his only one or faithfulness from his part, just like I don’t require that we become a couple in a long term relationship. He can be free to do his life while I’ll do mine, and only in those moments when we get together for a couple of hours of play, we will be just for the other, giving everything of ourselves to our momentary loved one.

Unfortunately, this would work for a man who wants a sweet girl rather than another man; maybe a young boy still could make it, but for someone like me that don’t have the shape and look of a woman it’ll be really difficult (sigh!), but I’ll keep working on that, trying to reach the best shape and look I can for him to enjoy, and so I can enjoy this dreamed adventure.



Dream Date

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We all dream of something we would like to experience, and I guess that shows who we are, what we want, and what are we searching for.

Since I feel as a woman, I like to be the female, kitty type one. Dressing sexy in what in my concepts is sexy, which seems to differ from what guys and CD’s in sex dating sites most commonly like.

I’ll be wearing a light fabric dress; the kind that opens in front and you put it on like a jacket. It would be a very simple design dress, that covers my butt like a mini skirt, and is closed in front with a line of buttons, and then an integrated belt. I will have nothing else on me; no shoes, no underwear, nothing. Just my wig and make up, and some light jewelry like earrings and a necklace.

My date will visit me at my place, so I’ll be waiting for him with my dress on and some wine ready to serve. When it comes to men I like the simple type, not the big muscle kind; he is in decent shape but nothing great. He is wearing jeans, a T shirt and tennis shoes when he visits me. Think of a geek type; maybe a library rat.

We get together and he holds me and kiss me while I give myself up to him. He starts unbuttoning my dress and I let him, as a sign that I am his to play with. He opens my dress and start massaging my breasts as we chat for a moment about how our days have been going. Then he walks me to my bed. I go in front of him and he lifts my dress and grabs my butt as we walk.

I pour some wine in the glasses and play some romantic music in the stereo. We drink and dance slowly while kissing. Then he takes my dress off and I am completely naked in front of him while he is still with his clothes on. I am his, for his pleasure. I kneel in front of him and make love to his cock for a while, so he can feel pleasure. Then he takes me to bed and bend me over, having my butt in front of him. He massage my whole body and kiss me all over very sweetly, as he knows that gets me wild.


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He kiss and licks my ass, to then play with it pouring lots of lube, and then he enters me, very slowly and carefully, while I feel him taking me and making me his. Then he grabs me from my hips and starts fucking me harder and harder, while I stand the fucking, the shaking, the use he is giving me. There’s nothing I can do, other than let him fuck me, and that gives me so much pleasure knowing he is having pleasure by using me to get his sexual relief.

Then he lift me and throw me in bed face down, so he can fuck me while being on top of me. He fucks me in my ass, at the same time he grabs me tight from my shoulders and breasts, while breathing heavily in my neck. All his weight is over me, so I feel I can’t move; I can’t do anything; I have to stand the hard fucking until he decided he had enough. He is the wolf; I am the prey and he is feasting on me!! So I close my eyes and enjoy being his for his pleasure.

When he is ready to cum, sometimes he cums inside me; other times he cums all over my back and butt, and other times he turn me around and cum in my face, my mouth or my breasts. He leaves me with his cum on me.

Then he takes me by the hand and guide me to the shower, where he starts washing me all over, while I stand still with my arms over my head and my eyes closed for him to wash his toy. His hands run all over my body, invading every very personal place. But I let him because I know he enjoys having me all, and I enjoy being his all.

He soaps my body with his hands, and then wash away the soap, again, with his hands. I am touched everywhere several times. I am groped and used by him, while I stand still with my arms on my head, and remain with my eyes closed, so he doesn’t feel controlled on what he can and cannot do because of my eyes. He owns me and he knows it.


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Then he drys my body with the towel, and takes me by the hand to the living room, to have another glass of wine, listen to the soft music, and seat in the couch with me leaning my head in his shoulder or over his legs. I talk very softly and slightly touch his body, so he knows I am his kitty to pet for a moment.

Times always fly when having fun, and when six hours had gone in like five minutes, he has to leave. So I go with him to the front door hugging him and softly rubbing my face in his neck while purring like a kitten. Then at the door, he is standing ready to go while I am standing still naked, saying goodbye. We kiss, he gropes me again and give me a quick spank, and then he leaves.

He is happy because he had me. He loves me because I give him pleasure the way he wants it, and I love him because he is very sweet and tender with me, and he treats me like a fragile kitten that needs love. We give each other what the other wants sexually, and in the way each other want it. So even though I reduce myself to serve him and give him pleasure, and he takes me and uses me for his pleasure, we both do it with respect, care and love, so we know we are for each other.

Then the times we have outside of the bedroom talking and discussing things…that’s a completely different story! But I’ll tell you about that in another post.




Body Use

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Sometimes we have funny things that really are sad instead. What I mean is that, sometimes a situation that happens makes us laugh, when in reality we should be sad for it. I’m sure you have had many times situations like that. It happened to me last night.

I met a friend to go out for a couple of drinks and chat, and then go back to my place for some sweet sex. As you know, being me a Two Spirit person who doesn’t have her own body, I use my brother’s body to interact in physical life. In other words, I am the second spirit in my brother’s brain, so he is a man in a male body, the one who exist in physical life in all rights. Then I am the second spirit in his brain, so I exist only in ethereal life, and when I want to be in physical life I borrow his body.

The problem is that I am a feminine spirit, so when using his male body, I transform it into female by the use of female clothes, make up and wig. Then I can go out in physical life and have fun experiencing physical things.

What happened yesterday is that I took my brother’s body, dressed it as a woman, and then went out with my friend for those drinks and chat, and after that we came to my place and had even more drinks, so at some point I became dizzy and sleepy.

The bad part is that with my friend we spent more time sleeping than making love, so it was like a waste of sex time! LOL

The funny part is that after the meet, I removed all the make up and changed clothes to male, so to return the body to my brother, but I gave him back a drunk body!! He let me use a fine body and I returned it drunk, tired and completely out of sinc with his life because the body didn’t sleep at the right hours, finding itself tired at the time it supposed to be available for my brother for his activities.

I know, it is very irresponsible from my part. My brother let me use his body for me to have fun in physical life, and I returned the body all wasted up! Like borrowing a car to go on a short trip and returning it all dirty and without gas in the tank!

My brother and I really have very distinctive personalities. He is very analytic and careful with his doings in life, while I am very impulsive and tend to act without much care. Because of this I’ve been able to do lots of things my brother have never done, yet very often I leave the body worn out! In a next post I’ll tell you more about our different personalities, and how that affects the physical body we use (his body).

I am a bad girl, I know! And seriously, sometimes I am surprised at my brother’s infinite patience with me!