In the same line of the previous post, trying to better understand myself, here is another question:
If there was an injection that is used only once and is free, and the the use of this injection would be to completely suppress sexual desire for the rest of my life…would I take it?
By using this injection I would never feel sexual desire ever again.
I would never feel attraction to anyone of any sex, other than for a friendship
The effects will never subside
Would I take it?
It might seem strange to answer yes, especially considering how important is sexuality in a person; but that’s exactly the reason why I would take it.
You see, sexuality as sexual desire, attraction to others and actually having sex, is so important in most people’s lives that it can be a wonderful thing…or a curse! The need for sexual intercourse is deeply ingrained in our brains as a survival instinct of the specie as a way to keep us searching for sex most of the times, all from a time when we used to be cave people. But nowadays having sex anytime, anywhere and with anybody (willingly or not) doesn’t fit in our actual society rules, and our own moral behavior. Now we meet people, get attracted to someone, and from there we follow specific rules of dating and sex, which includes the proper respect for the other person.
Because of this we have more sexual desire than we can actually have sex! So to compensate there are several ways to provide people with sexual relief, including porn in its many forms, dating sites, and the the old masturbation thing.
Now, for some people (I guess the majority) the mentioned forms of “side” relief might work just fine, but for me it doesn’t. I never watched porn other than maybe 2 movies in total (in 50 years), I used to masturbate maybe twice a month when young, and lately no more than a couple of times a year, and while dating sites do provide with connection with other people searching for sex, the encounters are very sporadic (once a year average if being very active in the sites) and the found person not necessarily satisfy personal needs.
All this takes me to the point of wanting sex and not having it…for years (ring a bell?), so in my personal case it would be such a relief not to feel sexual desire anymore. It is not just the frustration of not having physical sex for years without the alternative of the typical alternatives, but also the problem of being a woman in a man’s body.
By being a woman in a man’s body there is the additional problem of having male genitals (that don’t work anymore) and the perception other people have that I am a man rather than a woman. This means that if I want to attract men and be seen as a woman I have to physically change my body to female, with all the problems, cost and time it implies.
At the other hand, if I didn’t have any sexual desires, with not feeling any attraction to other people, male or female, wouldn’t it be a lot easier in my life? I could remain as a man since that’s the body I have, I could remain married and have a happy life with family, and there would be no hidden desires, plans, projects and all the madness a transsexual person of my age have to live through.
It is said a 30 years marriage where there is no sex is nothing new, but in exchange there are other things and values that matter more than sex, and it is true; friendship, companionship, and tons of memories. Also, if in my personal case the sexual attraction I feel towards men is the main element that pushes me to feel as a woman and desire to become a FT woman, then by not feeling sexual desire not only I could stop wanting to be a woman, but also it could mean recovering my marriage and previous life as a man. In my personal case, what difference would it makes being a man or a woman if I don’t feel any sexual desire! And if so, why change my previous life as a married and family man if, by not desiring sex, nothing would change.
So you see why I would take that injection. And you…would you take it?