Archive | July 2013


064   2013-07-30    10   01 Psychology and Mind                Runaway (1)


While in my “society” life there are so many problems to deal with at work, home, sex, dreams, etc. that at the moment of taking my clothes off and walking naked under the sun and the breeze, all society related things go away together with the clothes and I really can feel free and be part of nature as another creature of mother Earth.

Not only the problems related with striving in a society disappear, but also the doubts and dark feelings that are always conditioned by society rules and teachings loose their importance and effect in my mind. So a free spirit become, to let the inner feelings come out in whatever form and intensity they might be and exist.


064   2013-07-30    10   01 Psychology and Mind                Runaway (2)


When walking naked in the open surrounded by nature I can feel the woman in me expressing herself without restriction, and that allows me to feel free and happy! No longer the need to pretend or adapt to what suppose to be or what is expected, but instead the true one exist, even if it is for a brief moment, while always scared of being caught daring to search for freedom.

So brief moments are, and intensity in the joy is the norm, until the time to go back to reality and society comes, and becomes a long wait to the next opportunity to travel to that parallel universe where true humans exist and can be.


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I might not look like a beautiful and sexy woman; I might resemble more a hybrid thing of male and female in the darker side of possibilities; but when being alone in nature, and naked to be part of it, I can feel happy inside and even feel sexy and attractive!

So the woman within becomes free to come out and enjoy physical life, while the man owning the body can feel free to let those inner feelings surface without society restrictions that only promote frustrations.

The true freedom of being a human creature!



Feeling as a Woman

063   2013-07-24    09   06 Fiction  Stories                          Feeling as a Woman (1)


I just can’t help it!  When I put on the wig and some female clothes (or naked) I just feel like a woman. The movements of my body change automatically to a more feminine way and my gestures and face expressions become also more of a woman.

After a long drive to reach a solitary place where I can be naked without anybody there, and even though I keep looking around to make sure all the time that nobody else is there, still I can feel the desire inside me that maybe there would be another man in the area and he would see me naked and become attracted to see me up close.

Maybe quietly watching me from a distance and imagining sex with me, and maybe deciding to walk towards me to start a conversation with the intention of having sex.



063   2013-07-24    09   06 Fiction  Stories                          Feeling as a Woman (2)


Getting scared to death when I hear his voice behind me and needing a couple of minutes to recover and realize he means no harm but maybe just fun, so finally I go back to smile and keep the conversation while feeling so good inside because I’m completely naked in front of a stranger that wants me.

Just the thought of that gets me horny! “Being completely naked in front of a stranger that is interested in having sex with me!”

Then my mind runs imagining different situations where he talks with a devilish smile in his face and little by little gets closer to my body. I smile and move my body in teasing ways letting him get closer and closer, so he knows he can have me.

When side by side he keeps talking while looking down to my body and his hands start moving to touch my skin, while I play with my hair just to keep my arms up, offering him my body to play with.


063   2013-07-24    09   06 Fiction Stories                           Feeling as a Woman (3)


His hands touch my boobs and play with them while I remain with my arms up and a smile in my face, looking at him in the eyes with my own devilish eyes saying: “Use me, I’m yours”

He then forgets about being cautious and simply grabs me and starts kissing my boobs while his hands run all over my naked body, and I remain quietly there just moaning in pleasure.

After a while he turns me around and bends me over leaving me in that position ready to receive him. He takes his time and maybe even rest for a moment having a cigarette while watching me there, me in four legs with my head close to the ground and my ass up in the air with my legs spread apart.

I know he is watching my ass with a devilish smile in his face yet he is doing nothing but seating there behind me enjoying that I am completely submitted to him. He owns me at that moment! And I love to be his, waiting for him to decide to fuck me!


063   2013-07-24    09   06 Fiction Stories                           Feeling as a Woman (4)


Then he throws away the cigarette butt and goes to take another butt…mine!

He grabs me from my hips so I cannot move, and proceeds to introduce his cock in my ass. Slowly he goes in and then starts to thrust me; every time faster and harder, while I remain quietly there with my eyes closed enjoying everything.

He is enjoying himself fucking this stranger who he knows is a man that feels like a woman; wants to be treated like a woman, and was secretly waiting for a man to fuck him.

Maybe he is not into men; maybe he just wanted to get off and was using the opportunity; maybe after having his relief he will push away this man, call it faggot and spit in his back, to then leave laughing at that crazy fool that thinks he is a woman when he is no more than just an ugly man that cannot ever be confused with a real woman.

I wouldn’t care less, to be honest! I would just remain on the ground, probably tired and with pain in my ass, somehow like pretending to be unconscious while I hear the birds in the sky, the sounds of the breeze and his steps going away, to just wait for a moment before getting up to grab my clothes and walk back to my car to drive home while feeling somehow sad for being used, but at the same time feeling happy that for a brief moment I was a woman for a man to use.

One dream that came true!



I Must Be Cursed!

062   2013-07-20    07   05 Dates and Encounters              I Must Be Cursed! (1)


I must be cursed or something!

Being subscribed to two gay dating sites to try to find a lover has been fruitless!

Outpersonals and LifeOUT at first seemed to be the perfect places to find a man interested in sex with another man.


062   2013-07-20    07   05 Dates and Encounters              I Must Be Cursed! (2)


After about four years in Outpersonals I did get laid with some men, but I always got dumped after a couple of encounters (and I did dump a couple of them too, I must admit). The thing is, due to the cost I let expire my Gold Membership and went to Standard, and nothing happens since then, but even when Gold still very little happened, and that’s why I decided not to spend more money for nothing.

So I went to try LifeOUT and, even though I’ve been there for just a couple of months, it already seems to be the same thing.

There are positive comments about the pictures and videos, and some talk about desires of getting their hands on me, but the fact is that when trying to arrange a meet, they fell silent like if swallowed by mother earth.


062   2013-07-20    07   05 Dates and Encounters              I Must Be Cursed! (3)


Am I in the wrong sites? Are they being just kind when saying nice things about my look, but not really interested? How do I know!

The thing is, I guess I should try one last time in a heterosexual dating site and see if something happens, until I’m kicked out for being in the wrong site. Maybe there I’ll be able to find a man who wants and is searching for another man for sex. What a mess!

In the meantime I’ll keep showing in this site the physical changes I get as time allows, and hope one day I’ll find a man to be lovers.



Getting Naked

061   2013-07-12    09   01 Psychology and Mind                Getting Naked (1)


There is something very special when getting naked. The act of taking my clothes off, slowly and carefully, feeling the fabric slide over the skin, feeling the breeze and the sun in my skin more and more as the clothes go away little by little; to reach the point where there are no more clothes on and I’m completely naked.

It’s like peeling off the garbage of society that sticks to the skin, and getting clean of it, to become a human being again…pure and unspoiled, that becomes part of nature instead rather than the people’s world.


061   2013-07-12    09   01 Psychology and Mind                Getting Naked (2)


Every time I have the chance to get naked I take it, especially if it is in the outdoors! The incredible feeling of freedom that it gives me is more than enough to push me to search for opportunities to do it again.

I wish I could live 24/7 completely naked!





060   2013-07-11    13   02 Physical Changes                      Better


Still no time to go to the mountains; maybe next week! A quick trip in the morning that should give me about two hours of sunbathing and another hour to take some pictures and videos.

I love taking videos from which later I can get pictures, so to have a memory of the trip, the time spent and the activities done.

As soon as I get those I’ll publish some here, but in the meantime this is a picture from a couple of weeks ago, where it seems to me the body looks a little better that in the previous picture, don’t you think?